just a jit

i remember when i was just a jit nobody showed me love i fell in love with all this beef nobody on the side to show me love my cousin died that left me traumatized no need to lie you know it made me defiant you know that shit broke me ian neva had a mom or a dad to show me respect i been crying in the dark since i was 9 my inner child screaming for help call an ems my heart broke into shreds my mama broke my heart first then my brother crossed me then i had to put loyalty above love bc you can love me an still stab me in my backk