dear Jesus what a season

dear Jesus what a season my creator my maker I wrote this prayer to you on paper hoping you'll say... it's time to save her and save me from this horror movie this is only the tip of my story dear Jesus do you remember me because I don't im no longer that little girl you met I now go by Hottmessness and I guess that's what I'm calling my self these days? though it was a cute name... but wait let me tell you how I even became what I become and what one day will overcome one hott mess because of their sick Cruel demented ess Even tho i found happiness I feel like I shouldn't deserve experience it because there still lies an emptiness in my soul taken over by this heaviness caused by their spitefulness pettiness sketchiness activates my tongues weakness sickness I say word vomit my depression has escalated like a rocket how could they do this to me fuck a movie This is a fucked up Hallmark Lifetime series i guess you all love that My misery is so juicy But I definitely dont love your company This series is just for show it's shit tho A shit show who knows I don't like the Truman show now I don't know who is for real anymore Actually i do i just pretend I can't see their inner core But hey what's the score Cant jim carrey me just a little advice although Fiji is sounding pretty nice Like paradise away from everyone and their lies Y'all could stay being tested on like mice with an implanted device. im not down anymore to pay that pretty price Never was, show me where I signed ? Return me to my original mind when I paid the obvious no mind and my mind was mine when knowing too much was no crime And didn't put lives on the line so if I go to soon know who took mine take note of the ones who hated to see me shinee who even hated to hear that Im doing fine those who shoved me off my throne never wanted on see me grow who Never wanted to see me prosper who taught me the holiest people could be devils little soldiers Who Never offered a proper offer who witnessed the I had my daughter and still wouldn't even lend a dollar who loved to make me feel smaller knowing I was meant for something so much bigger those who loved to tickle my triggers who had Twitter fingers who also was an instigator who never wanted to see me do greater I was always their savior yet they were a traitor how fucken dare they come for me and the bond with my daughter karma go hard then harder don't let them corrupt my daughter like they did their son being his Number 1 enabler dear mr president here's a little wisdom on your corrupt system who failed to have my families best interest a sond with my daughter they were blessed to witness if they did my soul is bothered don't they dare feel like they should be honored don't let them forget to holler if it has to do with my daughter but not holler for a dollar because I won't bother they keep me away but this song and memories will forever remain don't justify let them come clean to what Jesus has already seen None of them helped me when I had a daughter to raise theyll never be praised they just needed a raise so they wouldn't get evicted from their place from my heart they are forever erased take me back to the days when my heart had a happy face when I had her happy face in my face every night and day didn't have to be in a public place judgmental faces hate our smiling faces never hear praises theyre going to try to Twist and rephrase this don't act like there must have been an understanding we missed my words they intentionally twist I'm her mother who deserves respect but they brainwash her to believe there was neglect liar liar pants on fire who does the hiring here I'd like to inquire what was the result of their parenting? it should be required they'd be so fired I raised her with manners they don't appreciate how lucky they are to have her they teach disrespect now lets determine whose really the culprit of neglect if I were so unfit they wouldn't feel l intimidation to manipulate fabrications. even the department is a victim of their your manipulations. they manipulate my truth as a mother When they all know i outdid their best they wouldn't believe the things i hold in my chest but im perceived as a pest because they lie and afraid theyll be impressed when they see ive always tried my very best even when life gave me lemons and i made a strawberry sundae i know briella will appreciate those moments one day. The proof is in the pudding Shes the most perfect human being Explain how could that be Thats right , keep it pushing because she was raised by me then had yo keep up with their daily requests it was my baby i was trying to protect they made me lose 2 jobs and the ability to stand on my own two feet karma, please say you got me The proof is in the pudding continue to keep it pushing cause i already did the raising now let's take a look at who they raised what runs through his veins and who taught him the way (dada) the department continues to ignore me i think the court would agree they arent qualified to poorly raise my little human being Take me back to that happy place When I always had her happ yface in my face Mother daughter Saturdays Now Saturdays are just another day all the love I have given her that's my Briella Aaliyah Miller....Cardoza last but definitely not least he's a beast , my cutie im his beauty I wanna give gratitude although sometimes comes with a bad attitude I'm blessed to have my honey he's my favorite hobby, and the hero to my story. but I'll leave that for another day another dollar another song for you to sing along like hollerrr