A fight between heart and mind

A fight between heart and mind The heart soft but the mind won't gree, A step a risk to joy or can be pain , I want to run but nature won't allow, It's time to choose but choices ain't the same , A fight for freedom, but the shackles and the shame, won't let me free, A step to success that ended in agony Please tell me how should explain That what was meant for good went bad I no get strength to explain tire, since I have no evidence A time like this my peace hard to find A time like this , I look for help but couldn't find Why why why must life be this cruel