hold up

hold up wait a minute drop the beat ayyy ,ayyyy what it do? what it be i be walking thru thru this town heading down to the depths of the devil with my head down with that head sound i get played, i get clowned but everyday i get more clarity found which puts on my frown fighting to keep my head afloat with my extremities outta place bound with a brick tied to my leg, I'm at wits end what is it you want from me what you want me to be an option it seems silent, gone, disappeared or is it not to breath? I'm sick of everybody always trying to be drowning , downing outting and doubting me ill learn little by little each and every time i get burned i don't give a fuck youll see right now my love is strong but not for long each and everytime im strung on the light dims and my heart bleeds if i can't know the truth your spelling my destiny im sharpening up this soft stone up into prism of wisdom , you will be wishing i didn't it will blind the vision to all their intensional evil deeds , impede the proceeds shoving the tip through their eyes one at a time, fuckin up thier vision like they constantly have done to me i don't mean to alarm ya i believe in karma im gonna i gotta flow like lava its getting exponentially hotta i tend to be a downer but i am the founder of beat your ass down to dirt, ill show you my worth, show you my hurt, opposite inert dawdlinvert mind numbing insert a word exhausting show you how much is bottled up i can get active reactive both hands closed captions adios amigos go pick them apples i dont stoke animosity i just wonder what they want from me why am i so special so special, all eyes hawking me aiming for my feet chopping at me never to accept defeat cooking up that recipe a necessity to a life longevity whats deep, often i wonder just why they constant be silent pressin n stressin,stretching me wishing they could rip me apart machanically,its satanicly their secret plan GR Elite gaslight me call me stupid already ript my family from me go ahead tell me im acting crazy like i aint heard it lately tell me to go get help make me feel there is nothing else take me low just to show they wear a belt all my life i felt ive tried just to help yet i still remember breathing and sneezing realizing the cancer was planted and now its a waiting game insane to brain trust me im used to the panic. welp , who cares,oh well ,too late now, wow im the sacrifice, im the cash cow they benifitting from my downfall they strip me from my identity someone close to me took me for an idiot but numbers dont lie i been crunching the numbers and the mathematics add up im mad fucked ,whole group using me got god game control over me what do they want is it my wife, is it my life, is it my opportunity, is it money you want from me? why do i sense you got my own children frauding me? i know papa don't want me to be part of the family so he uses tatianna maqueed and puts the address to the old 196 e sessions street. I'm racing and raging, screaming i can't take it imma fail i wont make it going dark creating mayhem pull the roots enter playpen ruthless caveman paceing and paveing see if yall just playin come weigh in for a supersayen slaying ill be hosting I'm not boasting I'm smooth boating n floatin a fool no more ripple in the water the slaughter makes things hotter I'll solder up the hopper fight for a life deeper be a squatter cold hearted plotter patiently wait at the baited gate to determine your fate for fucking with me. im a nice guy why are they fucking with me how to find the proof is whats been puzzling me...im fed snippets of clues, gaslit, confused used used,being used and reused ,payback it seems,over and over again and again all the time alright fine, ill just leave everything i have and start clean, isnt that what you were asking me when i failed to speak competently back when yall started on me and wrote ultimatly and ultimately?