why cant stack my money an get these bands up?

why cant stack my money an get these bands up? Whyd God take u just befor times got tuff? whys my family full of hipocrits instead of realist? Why if you been thu some shit you really feel this? Why you call me a junkie an and i call you an alcoholic! why do either of us refuse to drop it an find a different topic? why must someone die for us to get together? why should you hate me over things i do to myself? why dont you focus more on what your doing to yourself ! why is the wrong side the one you always wake up on? why is it that family is the first to stab us in the back? why do we choose to make things worse instead of better by the way we act? why do you feel the need to ever call the police on me? why was i the one to suffer beside her while mom died? why was the last thing i said to her not the truth , i lied?. 1 i probably could have made it there but i never even tried. i know you had to work but to me it seemed you had a excuse to hide.. yeah we faught, but never did i hurt you bad or make u bleed