In my Room

im paralyzed in my room and really cant move my egos bruised terrified I might die soon with nothing I can do my life's a cartoon running round stuck in a typhoon what a bout you? I don't know where I'm supposed be honestly I ain't done a thing all week yea I wrote some songs but I didn't give it all of me and that's on me havin doubts n barely any motivation it seems my days been kind of bleak so I smoked a lil weed and stayed inside with procrastination takin over me I ain't going outside when I got my social anxiety approaching me but I got grandma asking if I can go pick up groceries when I can't even move my own two feet cuz I feel like everybody passing all staring at me causing my own stress so I inhale some nicotine to feel a lil less but now I'm a mess and I'm farther from my best then I get a text sayin I should take a break just call it a rep n get a lil rest but I'm way to tense cuz when I lay in bed music comes to my head so I write instead n give my best attempt till I can't digest every inch of depth or until my death and pushing away friends cuz work ain't been met like it gots me in a hex of chasing success I still havnt slept cuz the skill I possess won't let me accept I'm paralyzed in my room and really cant move my egos bruised terrified I might die soon with nothing I can do my life's a cartoon running round stuck in a typhoon what about you? im paralyzed in my room and really cant move my egos bruised what about you? fr what about you I been stuck in the blues in a loop im not really used to sipping brew dismissing all the time I lose when I write these hakius in verses times two hey career I'm tryna find you I been following and breaking the dam rules burning my fumes speaking volumes tryna call you now I can't move stuck in my room on pause cant resume I presume this is my doom with the life getting sucked outt me like a vacuum I assume your my bride n I'm there for you but I ain't really your groom cuz I'm sweeping broking pieces under da fridge with a broom