broken home

now that I'm grown I'm taking a look back at my past time went , I came from a broken home ,never thought I would reach a state where I'm off on my own going crazy as youngen but i had to settle down remaine humble and make somthing out of nothing staying on the front line has me comen up off a fumble only to bubble, keeps me maintaining in the struggle cuz im forced to hussle with no team benches on me so I had to move with muscle picken up the pieces of the puzzle living with so much weight on my shoulders i had to carry my own shovel, I tussle with holes so deep n no ladder to climb out ,best believe I'm finding my way out knowing theres no way out or no way in, believe me i know what is like to make mountains out of mole hills, living in no regrets ,only growing with more skills, seen shit in the past that that still give me cold chills ,no cap I wouldn't be the man I am today if I didn't take my losses and find a way to capitalized up out the bullshit, that i use to jeperdize as a kid forces me to write through this pen, helps me contemplate my life as a man , thats why I'll never let anyone see me sweat.....( cuz my tears been dried up since the day my daddy left)...... if I knew then what I know now there wouldn't be no right turns, only keepimg to the left, of a full circle in oath of undieing, love ,truth, peace, freedom, justice..... solid to my bro,s that's thugged out here on our own , only lords know cuz we're definitely not alone and I never leave home without my chrome , on the rise of contemplating suicide reminiscing of all my homies who just died respecting those who ride under the five I ain't even going to lie the only thing you taught me is to shoot first ask questions last with my foot on the peddle pushing the gas going through trial and tribulation gaining patience through self persiverance n persistence with no procrastination never signing no resignation cuz I is what I is, love alls well for the nation