As I sit alone Asking God for forgiveness (for what) For all the shit in my life I lived through and he witnessed Promises to my kids That I ain't never finish Things I've said and done Trust me I'm regretting Wanted to be a father But the devil wouldn't let em The good die young ( fuck it) My time is endless so fuck u if u offended Or say I'm too old... In my mind I'm divine I'm a shine like gold(yup) Knowledge is power Let's electric fye the soul Get back in control Before we can't no more Yeah I'm pushing 40 But I ain't thinking for me I'm speaking for the youth And those growing up poorly State into my my eyes Please...understand my story Cuz I don't understand How I made it to be 40 In and outta state prisons 16 in corrections 39... I finally made a difference Let me share my story Hope u got a sec to sit and listen Judge me how u want And fuck u if u if u offended My momma was a druggie My daddy didn't love me Step momma used to beat me Fuck..... I had nobody.... Ran to the streets.. and At a young age... Mind set fucked up Heart pumping off of rage Fuck I hated life And at such a young age Sitting reminiscing God thank u for my 2 children I done fucked my babysitter I was 8 if I remember Kathy picket Shes probably dead God payed her a visit But I thank her Cuz these bitches I done fucked with Gave em good d Guess who they in love wit