lose friends

I lose friends and I gain friends but I don’t know if I can trust them because they can stab you in the back I feel so much pain but I can’t even show it because If I do I look weak all I want is money power and respect fear is stronger than love smoke one smoke two to heal the pain trust no one no even a hoe i don’t want you to hurt? Like I did I ya take me to the heavens gate because I don’t want to be here anymore but you know I love you so much and I will never forget what you did to me you try to deny it