Aint I

i was created in his image aint i. just like a seed in the center and i. know its been a minute since i prayed but to god write these letters. and to me it feels the same. aint i saint aint i sinner. aint i way pave the way for niggas after me aint i smart. aint i an athlete aint i on time, aint i first. how they passing me? aint i human aint i living? aint i using aint i giving. aint i doin for my chilren. aint i worth another chance even though i had a million. ain't i chillin aint i buildin aint i father aint i brethen. aint i a son. like my son still learning all my lessons. aint l larger aint i better. working harder but im farther from my blessings? please dont go i got more questions. i swear to god to god i write the letters. 2x i get blessings then lose em. sensai like wax on wax off. aint complaining but i got no patience for the back and forth. decades, aint i at my forth? my son gone be 5 in 6 days. im tryna pass the torch. but they keep raising the price for gas of course. job payment. after years still the same as the start aint i outta options, as i blaspheme then take it back. remorse. aint i full of it. or full of shit. regretful cuz the time i had b4, i had and lost. time, i couldnt buy it back. i tried it. even asked the cost. aint i. stayin in my lane but i crashed the porch. runnin outta time i need . subconsciously i find my knees grab the floor. aint i hesitate to ask for more but still do it ready to take a hit i platic jaw god i know u busy so i wont sweat it if im rejected. but i swear to god to god i write these letters 2x