12.01 in the am and im doin it again stayin up all nite no one here with to fight sittin alone gettin stuck in the zone playin on my phone listen to another beat and get on my feet gather my clothes time to shower and get ready for sleep but i cant seem to move and again i listen one more story to jot on this phone et phone home gotta take another hot to the done hopefully that will give me mptivation as the thpughts pass i ask myself is this really the hand i was delt and the feelings that i feel are they real my emotions runnin wild i feel likea child so niave and small on the floor i crawl and time i stall as i gather myself and try to get up once more feet sore and heart he tore and shredded pieces of it all around my heart pounds and pounds to be free to just be me would be a miracle lidten to every word displayed and will i ever get laid dont get paid but my ssi and should i just lay down and cry 12 10 and here i go again still stuck in the same spot writin lyric after lyric please lord pertect my spirit like i were a bank and your the banker why all this torture i have to endeavor abuse so many years and cryed so many tears full of fears now i end this song with i hi and goodbye come sing along now its 1213 time to stop bein a fein and go to sleep