remember(mamma)

remember when you told me you were always gonna love me remember when you said that nobody would be above me remember when you said that you can trust me I could never be ugly or your not fat your just a little bit chunky remember when you said it's gonna be okay remember when you said you'd chase the monsters away remember when said that you would brighten my day remember when you said that we'll always find a way think about what I said do you remember did you say that you'd love me forever that I can call you whenever or you'd come get me from wherever it didn't matter the weather you would make the you would make every endeavor I'm just wondering if you know if you remember filling me with this hope if you remember letting me get so close do you remember this oath man cuz I know for a fact that you don't now remember telling me these lies now remember all the times that I cried contemplating a suicide your the one who gave me life your suppose to be on my side but Instead you left me broken and traumatized life I'm a man now and I can remember it all I remember being beat and you did nothing at all me and my lil sis with our backs to the wall begging him not to do it wishing you'd make the call I remember asking Santa to bring me a new dad one that didn't hit us or didnt make you sad but nothing ever changed how could I ever be glad it's been hard to see the good from the ocean of bad so I changed for the worse do you remember started acting out when I developed this temper started using drugs than I became an offender every week a new bender drowning the splendor do you remember me calling you I had asked for some cash I was tied to a chair they was beating my ass I was scared for my life I thought you'd help in a flash said "idk what to tell you" and then hung up on my ass remember when my sister had told you about Steve I bet you don't because you told her that you didnt believe we thought after Troy you wouldn't be so naive but now we see you were never a mother to her or me and you wonder how we got so bad why we never open up or ever wanting to chat why we dive into the drugs or why we get so mad well because we really never had a proper mom or a dad so remember next time we don't answer your call remember why your never involved why we never resolved our relationship completely dissolved. so to help you understand i hope you outlive us all remember when you told me you were always gonna love me remember when you said that nobody would be above me remember when you said that you can trust me I could never be ugly or your not fat your just a little bit chunky well I do remember mamma but I really don't wanna I wish I was 6 ft under I really need a good slumber so I'll be gone fvr changing my number raising my kids to love and always cherish one another remember