I'm sorry

its been some time since ive felt at home done left home left a boy and became a man or so i thought got fooled and ridiculed several times walking back to the trap with no shoes drug addicts and alcoholics became my close friends what can i say? ya boy was steaming in the summer now its winter my blood done froze the time of my life is borrowed spent so much time as youth in sorrow now im grinding, i got no worry my sons and daughter are eating hopefully one day ill be man enough to tell them sorry tell them sorry tell them sorry daddys sorry the pain hasn't come to end i cant leave the house without a drink in my hand wifey tells me i need to calm down i cant , i begin shaking the pills are screaming my name but so are my children i wanna talk , but no ones wants to listen but its alright im tryna calm my conscience but i just wanna say im sorry im sorry