Mine in Mind (prod. Stoic)

They rootin for the worst that can happen No fire place in the cabin stone cold while stoned from the green cabbage I picked from the “spliff market” right across from the “spliff factory” I’m lightin em all at once tryna chase the feeling of happiness Ive never felt before so why do I try and catch the shit? Emotions full of air like it’s a bag of chips And no more friends to enjoy a pack of rolled cabbages with.. (anymore) Lookin for some love and some touch like there’s.. (still some more) Open doors for me to go through lookin for a.. (reala(realer)) Feelin than the one I get when i feel the buzz kickin like the 8th month in the stomach of a motherfuckin.. never mind Tryna find some time to feed her and the baby ( that she likes ) And thinks of as a real child cause I could not provide (one) In the freezing heart that’s mine, at least were tryna (tryna) find (some) light that’s lit somewhere in the maze that’s in my mind (uhm) Which is a start with no finish line Like how I want my love to be but further I recline In my chair while I write these thoughts And things that have been on my mind about dreams that sit in the dark Rooms inside my brain, and the rooms just multiply Cause I keep having dreams about her where we build a perfect life I always wake and realize that she’s not still by my side not buckled up for any ride So I do the same thing The dash showing like 85 and then quickly we add a 1 Driving with a deathwish like theres a body in the goddamn trunk Fuck My mind is.. An empty house, which is my thoughts No fire place, which is the love I’m missin when I think of her The missin grows a little more Every time I think of love It’s like a loop that never ends, and fully depends On how I perceive the future in my hands The spliffs all burn away as the friends just do the same The memories I was building just keep pretending to stay While I fucking live day to day and they all run and quickly fade So does the money in my pocket as I spend it on this (LADY🗣️) Emotion potion I’m drinking, it’s just liquor, the painkiller Makes pain go by quicker while my clock keep on tickin Makes my brain go numb, while the emotions get thicker Uh In the end I realize that these emotions is a bitch That’s been on my mind for years that I cannot forget for shit She keeps on running laps in my mind lookin for the finish line But like I said earlier it don’t exist, shes always mine in mind.