GETTING SO HIE TILL IT MADE ME SICK, PICTURES IN MY HEAD, OF PEOPLE DEAD, LORD SAVE ME QUICK, BEFORE I GO OUT AND DO SOME CRAZY ISH, SEE ALL MY LIFE IVE BEEN AN OUTCAST, WITH MY HEAD IN A DAZE, IN A MAZE, LIKE A MOUSETRAP, THROWN TO THE WORLD LIKE A PIECE OF TRASH, PLOTTING SKEEMS, BY ANY MEANS, TO GET ME SOME CASH, RUN IN HIS HOUSE, PUT A GUN IN HIS MOUTH, AND TAKE HIS STASH, NOW, LIVING THIS WAY, HOW LONG WILL IT LAST, BEFORE I ROT IN A CELL, OR END UP IN A BODY BAG, AND I CAN SEE IT IN HER EYES THAT IT MAKES MY MOMMY SAD, ITS TIME TO MAKE A CHANGE, WITH A NEW GAMEPLAN, AND PROVE THAT, IM A CHANGED MAN, I GOT KIDS TO PROVIDE FOR, ILL KILL AND DIE FOR, I WANT MORE, BUT IM STUCK BEHIND A LOCK DOOR, AND THEY WON'T LET ME OUT, I FEEL A BLACK CLOUD, IS OVER MY HEAD, AND A THOUSAND POUNDS, STRAPPED TO MY CHEST, HOLDING ME DOWN, I USED TO WALK WITH PRIDE, NOW I WALK WITH MY HEAD DOWN, TALKING TO MYSELF, ASKING FOR HELP, BUT NO ONES THERE, CUZ NO ONE CARES, DEATH SEEMS THE ONLY WAY OUT, I LOOK TO THE SKY AND SHOUT, LORD PLEASE, TELL ME, WHATS THIS LIFE ALL ABOUT, CUZ IM STILL TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT, I FEEL LOST AND ALONE, GOTTA DO IT FOR MYSELF, AND FUCK THOSE WHOEVER DOUBT, CUZ IM A MAKE IT OUT,  AND WHEN I DO, ILL REMEMBER THOSE, THAT DID ME DIRTY, WALK AROUND, ACTING LIKE THERE PERFECT, BUT THE BIBLE SAYS, THAT NO ONE IS, NO NOT ONE PERSON, THESE THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND, TRYING, TO FIGURE OUT WHY AM I HEAR FOR, WHAT IS MY PURPOSE, AND THE PAIN CUTS DEEP LIKE A SURGEON,  SHEDDING TEARS FOR, THE FACT I, KNOW,  I DONT, DESERVE THIS, AT TIMES, FEELING HOPELESS, AND WORTHLESS, BUT STILL, ON HOPE IM HOLDING, AND SOMETIMES, LIFE, CAN CUT LIKE A KNIFE, AND BURN DEEP INSIDE, LIKE A FURNACE, MY MIND KEEPS TURNING, ROUND AS FAST AS THE EARTH SPINS, LORD FORGIVE ME FOR MY SINS, BUT I BLAME THIS WORLD IM LIVING IN, AND I, PROMISE THAT IM STILL LEARNING, IN THESE BOOK OF LIFE EVERYDAY, I KEEP TURNING, A PAGE, HOPING I GET THE MESSAGE, SEARCHING, FOR AN ANSWER, CUZ EVERY DAY IS A LESSON, IN LIFES JOURNEY, AND EVERYDAY IS A BATTLE, I CAN SEE THESE DEMONS LURKING,  THROUGH THE SHADOWS, I GOTTA STAY STRONG, CUZ I KNOW THEY WANT TO HURT ME, BUT WITH GOD I CAN HANDLE, ANY SITUATION, IM FACED WITH, if theres one thing thats for certain, is were born to die and only God knows when theyll close yout curtain