my moods were changing at more than the usual pace when-// i was at a crucial stage where if i kept on losing my patience// i would lose the greatest human to grace this putrid place we live.// as i prove to god that i can waste every blessing that he chose to give Because I was stupid! couldnt change how i think.//probably produced this charade that ive hit.// 2Shaes arrogant, cant change my belief.// blind ego to create what I seek, then break what i see.// put it together and make it all sync.// lost in the storm, theres no sailing the ship.// turning the wheel but still aimed at the brink.// it was ignorant bliss but the funny thing is- when life takes the form of what youre making of it