water under the bridge

water under the bridge doing whatevers nessasary self preservation financially stable allways working under the table when im willing and able my existence well known respected and feared so many un answered questions not to worry death paitiently awaiting the thoughts that haunt me become clear i learned to love the hate darkness fills the sollitude my soul curesed with everlasting life as the years pass by becoming a creature of the night nothing i do matters painfully aware of what becomes of me a living nightmare learning everything to perfection through trial and error.