change of seasoning

Yeah i swear i thought you were the one, i havent been the same since you said we were done, thats when i started smoking a ton and thought i was having fun but to be honest i miss my hun, and that fact i couldnt hold her is when all the chaos begun, death was on my mind, couldnt see what God wanted from me its like i was blind but.... i could hear, and thats when i was shook and my eyes were full of tears hiding it from my peers....fuck my peers i kept hearing focas on yourself, as hard as it was being surrounded with bad smells that put your mind under spell i grew up and got through it like my brother getting out of his jail cail. Yea.... my heart had a lock, you had the key! Only to people could unlock it, You and me. Im sorry but you took to long, i still understand i was in the wrong but baby i was weak. look at me now im strong. Dont need to believe me, but ive changed. Whats my reasoning? My lungs were weekening, the hole in my heart was deepening i finally could finally smell the roses, my life was like a change of seasoning. In the fall i fell, in the winter i got well, in the summer i was every hoes lover, i suffered. In the spring i got enough money to by you a ring and now im older and wiser its a new kinda thing!! I miss you and hope you get a chance to hear this song so you know ive change and im where you belong.