Shut it Down

Used to feel black and grey, all i wanted was the hash so my stress went away. Bought a couple grams, thinking itll help keep me focased for exams, wasnt enough, tolerence kept going up, gotta get more gotta get more, started buying 12 grams a day, starting wasting my money it felt like a damn chore, cant tell you how many sleepless night when all i wanted to do is give up and hit the floor, maybe 1 or 2 or 1,2,3,4! Gave up on love, i dont know whether it was just tough or rough but it just wasnt enough, had a hole in my heart, more puffs i took the more i could feel it tearing apart, grew stronger with doubts, i looked in the Mirror didnt know what i was about, thinking lifes to hard i want out!!! Shut it down, no more talking, you dont need to hear another earthly sound, shut it down, just listen to the God wearing a crown and he will turn your life struggles around. Shut it down Weed wasnt enough, started Lsd, didnt do it alot just tremendously. Carelessly i did it recklessly, thinking i had the ability to see things differently, next day waking up with two girls laying next to me, wheres my respect and dignity, you think i had fun but really these past few months was just a huge epiphany, God showed me love without the drugs and opened my eyes to see i can finally be happy. Ditched my so called friends, me with them wasnt the best blend, you wont be alone, i have friends who finally accept me for me, they are real not pretend. I gotta fresh new start even though it was over due, here comes round 2. This isnt funny im not a clown who puts on a fake smile when really you look under the mask its a frown if thats the case just shut it down! Shut it down, no more talking, you dont need to hear another earthly sound, shut it down, just listen to the God wearing a crown and he will turn your life struggles around. Shut it down