why do I even try

why do I even try, like I tried so hard to be your one and only, but it feels like you got five. I've listened to you alot and now I'm scared why... cause you say you love rain but when it rains you open a umbrella, you say you love wind, but when its windy you close your window, so now I'm scared of when you say you love me... im scared you don't really mean it i wanna say you mean it but now I'm scared, every night my family will hear me crying waiting on text message from you