Man I miss you mama I swear to god I Do... I can still see us in the front yard with your garden tools Plantin trees on that summer day That grew to bring lots of shade The Tree and memories stay Long after you've went away But now your at the tree of life Man you lived the sweetest life It wasnt always easy life &Lord knows that you paid a price To raise me without thinking In your nature though to sacrifice An altruistic Vision SO you did it without thinking twice If I could have gave you half my life You would HAVE got the better half Would have done it without thinking twice I cross my heart no TAKING BACKS! Remember how we used to laugh Blankets laid across our lap.. Waiting on the bus to come Poke up your thumb I'd try to grab it And right before I'd get it It would move under the Covers Memories of a loving mother Are bittersweet ,hate to love em Cuz trips down memory lane Are full of pleasure and pain Lord grant me serenity To accept the things I can't change And I know that she ain't coming back I'm Grown Know I must face the fact of that Depressions waves come back to back First I'll be straight Then a finger snaps Remember Days Panic attacks MADE ME stop and take off my hat MADE ME take a Second to honor & pay respect to my mama And even to wipe my face Feels disrespectful in ways Remembering plenty days I put tears on your pretty face For these years I spent in these cages Pills & these medications Locked up since I was a baby I'm sorry your sons a Gangster.. I'm Honored you was my mama I'm sorry that you and papa Put stress on both of y'all Marriage To raise me and I ain't follow The footprints in which you paved I'm sorry I went Astray I'm sorry for disrespecting The sacrifices you made For every time that you showed up For thousands of granted wishes I guess that I had to grow up In order to clear my vision Threw wisdom, came undearstanding The Love you gave me and shannon The Strength that it took to manage The things that I took fr granted The years that my papa worked Putting food on the kitchen fable The tears on my mamas Shirt for her son Cuz she couldn't Save him The years that my papa hurt... Breathing oxygen watching cable Shed tears as I write this verse For Marvin and Jody Cagle Lord I miss ya... Wish that I could hug and kiss ya Nothing left here but some pictures Part of me wish I'd went with ya Everything just seem so different Sunny days just seem so distant Memories fade but some are vivid Member days with papa Fishin Taught me poker in the kitchen Played with pennies and had plenty Must of been like 9 or 10 And I went all in and started winnin I looked up we both was grinning This is the greatest game invented! He said "Son look her a minute Now Gamblings fun till it isnt Don't bet it unless your sure.. If You aint sure then u play with pennies I Soaked up my papas wisdom But grew up got busy livin Talk too much don't stop to listen Decade spent inside of prison And I never saw my papa cry not once in my enti,re liffe But once I called from county jail And told him I'd got in a fight And looks like I ain't coming