Lost & Wishing

#Artificiallyi Songs4Seekers Barz Not Bombs RedPill Recordings #TrueRecords Entertainment KoalaOrigins & MathUniqueProduce #selfhelp #freestyle #improvisation #lyricist #mindfulness #selfimprovement #selfknowledge #nonduality Fuck it.... I officially surrender to the Mind! Not looking for likes, not looking for sympathies, but I am posting this for witnesses, just witness this. Some people already know, but since my FB page has morphed, first into a non-duality blog, and then a place my beautiful niece may one day experience me when my body is gone. I'm posting my pre-obituary(no intention of dieing here as I write)..... On February 19th I was diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure, I checked into hospital expecting antibiotics for pneumonia, yet I would be told my heart was enlarged and functioning at 19%. I cannot express how much closer to people I feel, how much love I feel, it doesn't make sense anymore verbally. I do my best in person using body-laungwij and in my rhymes. The literature says 78% of patients, under 65 , diagnosed with heart failure die b4 the 5yr marker. I assure anyone reading this who cares even a little, that I will not die like a bitch, like a terrified Vishnu seed that never sprouted! The gratitude I have, like carrying around a 15 lb kettle bell or weight vest all day, it's opened my heart to a longing for that which has always scared me, even death! But I will not go silently into the night, not yet, this Matthew, whom I love so deeply, is not yet enabled the luxury. I'm here, I'm here, I'm here, I am free. I am in Truth, I am in the UPPER ROOM, I Have Come! WE ARE HERE! WE ARE FREE! WE ARE IN TRUTH! WE ARE IN THE UPPER ROOM! WE HAVE COME!!!!! 💯❤️‍🔥🧘🙊🙉🙈🧘❤️‍🔥💯 Thank you Shiva, Brahma, and Vishnu, Rama, Krishna, Yeshua, Christ, Allah, Jahova, and Science for your Devine Witness! 🙏 In complete Humility, I submit my body's Life 🤲 #FREESTYLE King Lord #OFFTHETOP with another #MattiWooBanger a #MathUniqueProduce #ENJOY this #RedPillRecording