who am I part 1

i want yall to see what you see through my eyes... don't think i changed up i have a lot on my plate dilemmas rebutting the system declaration of independence look at me and tell me i aint winning im not materialistic im living for the spirit thats real compromise what does abolish mean ive ran from the system so long i just got reacquained in a place s girl i lost my virginity to was mutdered her life was taken but suicide was the title hanging with her arms tied behind her back a bag of meth rolled up in a hole from a bullet i heard it was a 20 sack dont jump to judge me im dealing something different im against the system my healing process dont need to shed light i got love for my brother not blood because they conditioned to my mothers while i was learning from her i learned to battle demons feeding off the devilish ways of her phiening my brothers still piercing the darkness illuminating the world dont give up or give in im autistic and almost righteous i wasnt ever shown sacrifice but im about to figure it out on my own gripping my soul with hurt hatred and a smile on my face thats strenghth gotta push forward only the strong survive im a danser conquering he who endure i was born for this not only my name hold a meaning my blood no comparison MY DNA IS THE CONDITION THATS GOING TO BE LIVING EVEN IF WE DON'T FEEL ALIVE WE HOLD ON LEARNING A STRATIGIC PROCESS I HOLD MY SPOT BURNT TO BARE ALL I AM THE LIGHT im really bout my business ask around people tremble thats not from insecurities or weaknesses... oh thank god atleast theres a word learned expression from a book just seems like grace should be felt however even the light hold on to some secrets so many days of cleaning processes without growth or conditions taking innocence spreading death my name almost unknown some people shake and my condolitions still live with them through out time atleast they had another chance to put meat on the bone closer to what it take my god knows i want us all out here eith she didnt burn them or drag them down even using the system her manipulation process evil she laugh as she darken my days i was tripping on acid when i was concieved ashes on my skin but my strong heart been through so much i wanted the world to be better place i took my time grooming the years she has on me almost left me to far goon trying to babysit situations birn like this not conditioned and no you cannot put out my light damaged corruption our peoples evil whats new the whole world knows evil death and gangsters one nation under god but gods not present and its against our culture for the kids to be shown... dilemas and compromise first off i ran into a situation trying to survive... i got a kid south from this point i didn't abandoning him... im auristic with a loving father humbly making it he slept with the devil a red headed spell casting evil witch shes the hurdles i been jumping for her entertainment im living passionately autistic lifes been a war but i smile keep the rest in the cript i just had to arrange a situation i was drug in trying to please unvle sam look how happy he is. druged up against my will the rest doesnt matter im stronger inlightened never again can that spread matter worse than a disease. im the cure so talented im killing it .. ..picked this spot im at whats ahead will come when dimeacius Earth turned to dust been through so much i conditioned to clean up the scum it started with atom now atoms adam has groomed innocent past the point of return no authority to stand up so its me against the world. since my aenses been hurt theres no healing emotions or feelings death comes with heart ache so i cut them out for the rest of my lonely days however im ready for what evertired of struggling rebuttle it ill be right here standing buck ready to battle for any kid....