real life

all cuz she cries doesn't mean it's real tears cuz I'm sitting right here in the paint of my fears i act like im fine but deep inside i wanna cry i dont even wanna die i dont wanna live this life you get what you get god alreday decided you can't through a fit pr your life would just be blinded from to much pride in ya eyelid you cant duck you cant run so i live my toxic oh alcohol yea i sip it all now im boutta fall up in the hall while the walls are closing in I'm feeling tall but im small cause the pain that's rushing in on a train to depression with perkys kickin in all cuz she cries doesn't mean it's real tears cuz I'm sitting right here in the paint of my fears i act like im fine but deep inside i wanna cry i dont even wanna die i dont wanna live this life