7 years

Lately I feel so alone Don’t even why I have a phone Nobody hits me up and I’m stuck Never had someone that I could call my,own It’s lonely walking down this,road Fake friends that I didn’t have to know The same ones that fucked me over and when ever I need’em And I turned around they just turn,ghost I feel that I am at a all time low I am depressed and it hurts me to know My ex is happy and I can’t seem to cope Shes ignoring every text message I wrote My anxiety’s high,my medications low I am so stressed and I hate being home I sit down and over think everything alone I wish I had somebody to hold,damn I’m sick and tired of putting everything up a front Like I’m happy but really I am in a slump I try to stay strong,screaming I don’t give a fuck But if anybody will give it then I’m the one I wanna put down my walls and open up I hide behind this rapper I’ve become Addicted to being accepted like a drug No one’s here I feel like I’m ready to plunge I remember you said my music was whack Teachers persuaded me to try give up my act They said image and the drive is what I lack Made me think maybe I could never be apart of rap Well I ignored that,I said fuck it and snapped Over 20 million plays where are my haters at I didn’t need a label to give me a chance To think I’ll sell out an arena I feel like I’m the man Buzzin hard but define nothing Never found someone who really loves me People comin round now cause I’m getting money A few play later now that y’all see something The same guy that is from the start The same guy my ex left with a broken heart The same guy who turned music into his art The same 7 year old who dreamt of being a star I’m 22 and I won’t let my self down I stood up right after I fell down It’s hard to see heaven when you know your hell bound I never really opened up and that’s till now I hope that I never loose you If I could choose one person I’d choose you I hope you understand my pain Cause that’s something that we all got to go through I hate being down this road Been down before I feel like I need you more I’m so alone,once I was 7 years old My futures all id imagine And now I’m here and i look back Im screaming damn it This the life I never planned it No I never planned it