I wonder why😔😔

ye ye I wonder why,I wonder why my birthdays have turned into some worst days, this feeling is so unfair,this feeling is so uncool ,I don't know my uncle,I don't know my untie,life is so unfair,life is draining me to death,always feeling scared,like I'm walking on the unknown path,no more ongoing future,no more ongoing super,feeling like I'm walking on my problems,just be tryna find a solver ,im be tryna pop this hollap,all my niggas socks gets turns up,all my bitches task be turned down,am I sick and tire of been used up,all my time I've been used up,I'm an instrument,never been to dept,just me tryna be in to bed,talking to myself,I think I'm going,but my roof is breaking,and the ghost is hailing,and they all be talking while I'm falling down in mud,I be popping reddle,but I've been so much careful,they call me weak,but I've never been so deep,in trouble,always been in public,with my head down in circus so damn hurting life is so unfair,fuck it I just wanna take a break,maybe die alone,cuz I know I'm never gon be missed,always been in pissed,always feel so broke,always been alone ,always been in hustle cuz I know school gon be my problem,the devil standing in my way cuz he knows I'm weak,knows its my time,to be in graves,to be in pain,to be in shame,to be a slave,God hold my hand,take me high on the sky,on the clouds,on the stars,on the moon,milky way,feeling saved,feeling blessed,super blessed,no more lack,of the pain,no more judge by life ,by my skin,by my height,by my faults,so damn wrong,all my fault holy God,help me now,save me now ,change me now ,before life it's self gets me into trouble,into idiot,into stupid ,,,,save me now,,,,cuz my life is only in your hands now,,,,not my family,not my friends,not me,,,,,,,just you,,,,,,Amen😔😔