reality

started with my friends but they didn't told but i stayed in control they left me behold but i yet start again I got the happiness but i didn't knew I'm living as a faker they were just a taker i even left the career for them and yet get blame I'm always on the bad frame whenever I try explain they say I'm lame I'm on the black frame I stay quite for the mood but I'm confused now brain is running out of fuel but i still feel happy with family but inside I'm crying I'm dying somethme i feel that I'm lieing because outside I'm smiling people said im lacking but I'm yet trying it feels like I'm crazy but maybe I'm overreacting I'm fighting my own battle but when I see my 3 kids I feel like I castle my battle i was here to make mistakes not to fake perfection . I was left alone with three kids I had no money to raise them I lived in the basement I was trying to get a higher placement but all education to my children I even ran for my husband I didn't care what will come next always stand for the right after seeing my child i finish dignity didn't care what right then I beg cause I thought my child will give me pride but nothing they have given except for cry now I don't feel pain now my brain think again that i should forgave my heart says now forgave xtill my grave and gain peace there