I lost U and my dad and that's when my sorrows left out my life. I use to get lost in ur eyes but went from waking up just to get high to die. I couldn't accept the fact that both of my worlds suddenly collied. And next to me wasn't my best friend just an empty bottle by my side. I thought u was my ride or die but that was ur best lie. Calling u t cuz my bag is looking empty inside. With my demons I couldn't fight so my problems IN a rig I would rather confine. I was killing myself slowing but not having fright on my mind. Ur lustful ways took over my luv life that anybody that luv me I would kill their trust with all my mite. Speedballing from side to side but still the mess I left behind is still in plain sight. My faith with God was drift further and further like a KITE. O.d 30 Tim's but evrytime I would get revive with the Dr's. I would fight saying why wouldn't u let me die. I just wana tell him that I'm sorry and to forgive me oh my, but my old life I have to Leave in the past telling God I don't want this lifestyle of sin to lead me on the righteous path. 163 days now at my old pain I laugh. No more hard in the air so the air its not hard to gasp. Now 27 and spiritual my life I have onto a grasp. The balls I'm my court, ill decide if I'll let u love me again, my luv im not ready to pass. Just know the same hurt u will feel to, it's gonna be from ur pass judgments Ur gonna feel the wrath. It's time to write some sads . .