too live the life you want Ant Nothing but a front Having to let go dreams Becoming no mo Waken up to reality Blinded bye what's in front of me Living a lie not able to sleep making sure the dreams don't speak Doing what should be living this a fake reality she said to me we can never be love was ripped from my chest quickly deploying pain it Destroyed everything that kept me sain now im just crazy losing my mind dealing with anxiety all the dam time wondering if I was out of line It is what it is thoughts of you won't Let my mind rest Still got my heart Beating Out of my chest got me feeling selfish knowing there's something better Than what I can give The life I have without  you Not sure if I even want to continue Ima have to let go This pain is Unbearable Even when it's something I don't want to do Your the one who Loved me the way I love you love that I never thought Would become true It sweetens salt and makes every sun rise  feel brand new You had me seeing with both eyes when I looked at you Feeling alive inside knowing I'm supposed to be with you But im full of tears Even when i dont cry Not once Did i lie About how you was My do or die Your smile keeps me alive But The way you loved him And told me goodbye I knew right then It was ok for me to die Ima wait In front of your locked gate For you to arrive  With a smile on your face Telling me it's ok To love you and take you Away Someday you'll see That on the first day When you said... you loved me It Was meant to be I'll never forget what that meant me Till then just know ...I love you too My life still seems like a lie Escaping reality Maybe with your Exotic eyes you Can find a  way to look at me The pain is frightening Staying up trying to forget everything Eternal Love is a endless flame It can never be put out Even in the end