System is failing

White boy I need to find relief from the pain inside to my lowest barly getting by I knew distance would divid3 the hardest thing I ever realized wish I could see you one last time before it's to late snd the dove Flys have you delivering flowers to my grave I hate that things have went this way I can't do it I'm done time to pray but you knew I would love you love u unlike anyone but I understand how l9ve can make u run it's hard to trust all things felt can't be real time will heal eventually I'm paying dues from a lifetime of thi gs I can't undo its pain and baggage I carry this shit be getting heavy like I'm bout to break don't want to fall all the way please help me try to save me I fear its ti late as I gather my things from a McDonald's table its all i got left I can't I'm unable goodbye you were great not all things are what you make sorry I didn't say the things needed to say didn't do the things need to be done my life yeah a lonely one and things lost surely hurt but nothing as bad as losing my daughter and my son it's too much I'm done I've had my day I've had my fun I'm not sure but it hurt me if I could feel like I had a purpose maybe I could get some closer fromthe things that hurt me though it's all uncertain