Sorry by Association (My story of being a missing persons)

My story of when I was a missing persons. No judgement please I needed this off my chest 🙏 Lyrics are here, true story My thoughts were screaming at me this morning Telling me to write a song Here it goes My memory’s so strong and it always takes me back To when I really made my lungs and my heart turn black It had been months since I spoke with my dad I hope he can forgive me for being on the track I was without a home Without a phone Sitting in a house like a dog with a bone Except what I had in my mouth was fucked I should have known That I would lose everything could have never made it home Can’t even say the word Like Voldemort We don’t speak it out loud You know the word Let me tell you about the people I was with Yes they were family yes I was raising their kids At 19 years old they introduced me to a rig Sorry for the years that I took off Sorry for the pain that I was part of You become a different person You may scare yourself But the worst part is what you do to those around The secrets that they told me I can no longer hold They snatched girls off the streets and lived in my home The secrets that they told me I can no longer hold They snatched girls off the streets and they lived in my home I figured they’d snatch me too if I said anything So I sat with them and talked like it ain’t no thing Got to know them well their afflictions and pain Human beings too? Just a couple of brains But for them everything that i was had changed I wonder about those girls I couldn’t do anything You become a different person you may scare yourself But the worst part is what you do to those around Im sorry by association My memories are tainted and I wish that you could take them I’m sorry by association I’m fucking sorry to the girls that were taken They Invited me to be what they called a bitch I said no They saw the missing posters of me random people started to approach Are you Alyssa Bentley? How the fuck you know that Meanwhile everyone’s got a gun and a bag Engrained in me was state of constant fear Couldnt fucking sleep I’ve had ptsd for years The things that happened to me still haunt me today Alone in his house I had seen his face They told me I was special because of my race Up on the totem pole and no girl could replace The potential I had to become the top slave To the devil and his games That’s another thing I should have known it was wrong To be surrounded by those who worship the occult But to me they were just people it wasn’t all their fault We were frozen in time covered in ice They were terrible people who treated me nice It’s been 3 years I’m still afraid they’re coming back They left their imprint cause now my heart and lungs are black And I’m sorry by association I can never take it back I’m sorry by association My memories are tainted and I wish that you could take them I’m sorry by association I’m fucking sorry to the girls that were taken