Colossal Doubt

Colossal Doubt Eating disorder thirsting disorder im a fucking mess and ill get worse when im older my stepdad said i have to be tough as a boulder he can shatter like a rock and i can crack like a pebble my body gets colder, never admitted always had the thoughts but i hate you stepdad your a meshmash of abominable torture, but everytime i had the chance to sit and say it i stand sick as shit to my stomach cus frankly i wish u were gone u made life actual shit at my home ur an alcoholic and wont fucking stop u keep smoking and youll say youll stop so now im passively smoking and ur just smoking im breathing the smoke and itll lead to me choking daily arguments with my mum yelling and screaming dont know if it extended but it kept repeating threats of beating now im having problems eating