Till The Very End

I love you son, I use to hug your mum, but for so many years I've been troublesome, under the rubble stunned from the broking home I come from, my sister use to grab a knife and lunge one, scream the house down had to go I to care my mum took the brunt of, my dad being drunken she up and left my heart was sunken but it wasn't grans fault, my mum was that ill she needed electric volts, I'm trying to put this into a poetic story in the hopes one day when your older some people have to carry more on there shoulders, I remember the first time I went to hold ye, faucet Mark on your head but your beautiful eyes talked to a soul that was dead, I wanted the perfect life for you but I was still hooked on illegal meds, I made a lethal pledge when I was younger fuck the world created evil dread to all those who didn't want to see me go under, but this is not about Me it's about you, il never be at peace until I can talk to you in truth......My darling I named you after my friend and grandfather.......I dunno wot shit they feeding your mind but this is to you Lisa u still drinking that gin and wine everynight a sight a grew up with growing up it fucked my mind, how dare you try keep my sonfrom me he's mine, there's no drawing lines my chest is empty and until my heart comes to mine, il say wot comes to mind your father's a dick made your mum abort the kid, slept with his cousins wife he's a wart a dirty prick n I'm being demonised coz I lost the will to live, mental health, nearly going out like my old school friend hung with a belt, Son when I think of you what's left of my heart does melt, there keeping you from me but they can fuck themselves I don't care about one of them perhaps your mother some because she bore you, but she wants to see me broken torn through, Lord Jesus cover Me in your blood from your head the thorns went through, my boy there's no horns on my head look, we will see each other again that's on the holy book....my darling I named you after my brat friend n grandfather you are my heart x2