No pain no gain atleast thats what they say its a way to train my brain to not shoot into another atmosphere and go completely insane. and you can bet your bottom dollar I will see my daughters right now it's kind of choppy water it's ice cold right now I'm just waiting for it to get a little hotter then I can slaughter and climb my way back to the top and be an awesome father. shit I always was I just had to dig a little deep I slip and fall and bust my head I get back up I slip and fall again and then I get back up what the f*** did you think I was going to do if you're still breathing then you have a reason don't let your demons break you down and weaken you went to completely and then you're defeated everybody please stay seated. The show must go on it's a constant battle every day to make it you always got haters talking you just shak em.. because if you ain't got haters and you ain't doing it right and then everything you do you it lights a fire under your ass and you do it despite em God I can't wait to see the expressions on their face when I'm on top again oh you m************ must be comedians as matt doe what you thought you'd never see me again and don't you know that Im a survivor with a lot of grit and grind and I'm not out of my mind I'm not f****** blind just needed some time to unwind. so if you don't know now you know.