pills talk to me

I'm a victim to my pain and my own past. Now these pills are talking to me. When I was young, age 4 I was running away because I miss my Grandpa, I don't know where he's at. Yeah. Ok, ok. You was gone too early for us one day I will fix the car with you in the spirit world hey hey, I kill all my friend's feelings by kill my feelings the most. I can't even love my own self because I'm too busy in this love life. Man, I do admit it, I am lost. But man, I need to hug u I did man made some bad seasons. Crying for help, but no one is helping me. Got no no options. To lose just win just lock me up and break the keys. They really don't care about me. I have to make it. Where is my dad no, he is in jail. You better get his tombstone ready for. him cuz he is die to me I wish mom told me that. The life is hard But. I am a victim to the pain. In my own past now these pills are talking to me.