still missing them

#12ronin #rapfame #paradox #hiphop #mccp #yungtongue #stateofmind #truestories #nolies #coldvibes yeh here we go again , feels like I'm trapped , you can't help me nobody can feeling alone again better pack my shit change town, move to a new home again, but I should be use to that, that's mainly my life story but that's not how it was suppose to end, I guess I'm that cold, I think they see how far they can push me just to see me in that mode n I'm not playing the victim , that's what happens when ya in care n ya get fucked by the system, they say something's off like it's missing yeh my sister n fucking mum, I'm talking to you both, back then I should've known to let certain shit go at the time I was hurt rightly maybe so, n I hate myself for letting it go this far tho cos now your both not here n everydays getting harder n I'm way to old to shed a tear I resent all the feelings I harbour , shit went wrong horribly, to try n say I'm sorry properly is it to late ? honestly? probably , always seem to have this bad energy now Ive got this dam memory that's always gonna be haunting me just like life I got mfs still taunting me, I'm off tag in less than 7days let that be a warning g, your doing your shit for views , I do mine to make moves, I put that Cali in a zoot dim the lights as I fade back, never hiding from the truth always spitting fire in the booth stepping levels going higher than you, I still wonder if I was there would my sister still be here ?11 years I still shiver when I hear ya whipser in my 👂 trapped alive in a nightmare I just want her back , got me going insane screaming life is so unfair, we went through heartaches from foster homes to supervised contact, leaving our birthplace, thinkng we had a cursed name , there should never have been a fucking reason to leave in the first place, if we had parents that weren't carless , daily attending a fucking chemist , that's why when I say I feel nothing I'm the deadest, top teir ya don't wanna test this, on beats I wreck it probably why they call me reckless like Henry the 8th you'll end headless, till the end of time ima always be relentless , spent my life on the run for commitng crime, always running out the exit after it being flipped upside down I went n changed turned that shit around went straight back to the booth MCs ima run in to the ground ...