going through it

Been going through alot my name used to be famous now its like im a ghost I hate this it's like a Playlist,gotta keep going up gotta keep showing up,might as well be showing up,never asked for this much attention,its so much tension,that's what I forgot to mention,just tryna write songs for fun I'm not tryna to impress anyone,it's supposed to bless someone,my name gonna go down in history,I'm gonna get my victory,people don't understand my pain,what keeps me calm is perks,I had to make a verse,I see black shadows on the wall I see a curse,I wish I could reverse,I'm probably gonna wake up in a hearse,people playing with my feelings,most of my life has been beatings, scars on my back,almost having a heart attack,I'm tryna continue to keep myself on track,I hard when u feel like u lack respect,don't need anyone to correct