5 years old

lately I feel so alone Dont even know I have a phone Nobody hits me up and I'm stuck Never had someone that I could call my own Its lonely walkin down this road Fake friends I didn't have to know The same ones that Fucked me over and when ever I need'em And turned around they turn ghost I feel I'm at a all time low I am depressed and it hurts me to know my ex is happy and I can't seem to cope She's ignoring every text message I wrote My anxiety's high my medication low I am so stressed and I hate being home I sit and over think everything alone I wish I had somebody to hold damn I'm sick and tired of putting up a front Like I'm happy but really I am a slump I try to stay strong screamin I don't give a fuck But if anybody will give it then I'm the one I wanna put down my walls and open up I hide behind this rapper I've become Addicted to being accepted's like a drug No one's here I feel like I'm ready to plunge I remember you said my music was a whack Teachers persuaded me to try to give up my act They said the image and drive is what I lack Made me think maybe I could never be a part of rap Well I ignored that I said fuck it and snapped Over 20million plays were are my haters at I didn't need a label to give a chance To think ill sell out an arena I feel like I'm the man Buzzin hard to find nothing Never found someone who really loves me People comin round cause I'm getting money A few plays later now that ya'll see something The same guy that is from the start The same guy that is from the start The same guy that is from the start The same guy my ex left with a broken heart the same guy who turned music into his art The same 5 year old who dreamt of bein a star I'm 11 and I won't let my self down I stood up right after I fell down Its hard to see heaven when You know you're hell bound I never really open up And thats until now I hope that I never lose you If I could choose one person I would choose you I hope you understand my pain cause that's something that We all gotta go through I hate being down this road Been down before I feel like I need you more I'm so alone I was 7 years old My future all I imagined and now I'm here and I look back I'm screamin damn it This is the life I never planned it No I never planned it tacked