chilling feeling relaxing meditative

chilling feeling good deep down inside.. .not letting... the world.. bring me down or discourage . i just gotta to chill .flow on these beats .. say what I have to say in how i am really feeling .. about my every day life and just feel free .. puff on this blut . the list of each love at my lugs ... lately life's .. been trying to bring me down.or be on my feelings and everything that been really making me feel like.igotta.figth . for peace of mind.it is what it is as I maintain.. smoking on this blunt to get medicated.. because I know I can't be faded even though I'm hated but it's a good and I know that I should just stay here and be free I'm too blessed to be stressed but I said back and rest smoke on blunts. as I inhale in Excel release the smoke from out my nose something at the same time because I'm letting time pass me by forget about all this drama that's around me with people really and got nobody else knows to do but try to get her to understand but I refuse to let that shit win I pick up my head and you have to stay headstrong and remember where I belong I'm a woman a strongest doesn't matter cuz we're back for never let me beat down ever again who do I trust and that's a question i ask MYSELF it's me against the world.. you're right I just sit here I'm trying to be at my best with so much shit up in my chest.. im just chill and relax. and have Excel.. waiting for themselves to be my phone I sent you all alone really good as I talked to myself I'm the only self but my best friends I have a best friend also forgets it's better that way.. im stay real to myself and for get about those who . really don't take.me me serious but my life is always.good im hood and everything is stuggle.in The Way I want to see in life.. i depend on God because men and friends will fell you every time .. and waste of time to give your . heart and love .. I realize that now I have to be on my own friend and watch for . people who are honestly fake and . use . they lie to get what they want and what really benefit them alieness i let them win over me one time next time wont happen again . im going to keep my eyes open too the future and follow my dreams and push in the way I decide to follow which part of the path . and follow my heart . im win my way to the end of of my destiny and just be me .. i don't have time for nomore stressing about anything that just .. make me fall off to the empty ness again . i gotta remember to include the way I can get away from all the hate and everything in this shady place we live in is bullshit and lies of unhappy people who are broken . and want to take break you down with them .. I'm be alright with life rules i refuse to quit being so hard on my self just relax smoke on mary and . take life one at a day . I been threw alot in my life now its time to shine put on my game face. and play with lifes choices and be able to do my best to make it in life and stay strong enough to hold on for my love ones .. yea .. relx chill smoke . mary mary . she clears my head and makes me feel better inside my self .. chill chill . mary .. you . take. my stress away from the hard time with life ..