Guess I'm stressed, he's a mess I wanna rest so.... I get away He calls me a bitch, like omg mother shit gets thick, back in the ditch,I say quit, on some real shit you acting a straight up tried to be the pretty queen, That he wants me to be the demon in the family can't seem to put down the drink white boys dream of living brings misery quietly in the shade, screaming for help to leave no shelter in Oklahoma thats not at capacity believe me, I researched it last week, And to my kids, who witness this, I know it's sick, I'm powerless With no whip, or cash for rent we sitting ducks for CPS didn't wanna stay... when I got paid He asked for cash, he asked for gas guess my bed was already made prayed at night the sleep apnea would take his ass away, even had him diagnosed, cause it was slow, just in case needed a plan like damn This is worse than we outran I understand the risk I take, with no choice I head that way with no one close here to face what can done but sit and wait Run to the streets or stay frozen couldn't put nothing into motion leaving was not an option, even though it was a choice well chosen wanted to tell the kids it was over so tired from the exposure, wanted to be gon in October, cause John was never sober cause John was never sober cause John was never sober cause John was never sober It's not fair they've seen what they seen How could they forgive me? always needing air to breathe, why he gotta fuck with me? Blind to my tomorrow decisions getting narrow Can't take off overseas only in America you'll think your free but its a tease especially when you get hit with the DV's I see. Guess I'm stressed, he's a mess I wanna rest so.... I get away He calls me a bitch, like omg mother shit gets thick, back in the ditch,I say quit, on some real shit you acting a straight up motherfucker... Lady Rhea. Tulsa, OK. 12-24-2021