Down & Pessimistic | anjellalo

title: down & pessimistic When people say good things about me I feel bad inside, I feel down & pessimistic. but if I'm an I'm an optimistic, how's that so? I'm feeling at a low I'm feeling so slow I'm feeling like this brain fog is my fault, and I'll always be lost in this field of haze... when will the skies clear? when will they, god? are you here? do you exist? I hope it doesn't offend you that I'm a preoccupied agnostic my grandmothers diagnostics are... terminal I'll miss her, when she's gone. I cry for her, and she's not yet gone... I'm there for her, only after avoiding for a bit being afraid to see someone in a way I wouldn't like to remember them. I don't visit her for me, I go for her, and I haven't gone often enough... I'll regret that in the coming days. soon, she... will pass away while in this world, we stay.