I'm sorry......

standing on the edge, cold barrel on my head,  ready to meet the end,  gonna say hi to death,  smiling forever,  won't crack, no not ever,  cannot break my demeanor,  pls kill me right here,  no i ain't got a fear,  and no I cant see clear,  i think i'm gonna leave,  for a year,  no one will even notice,  that i'm not even there, Sometimes i wish  i couldn’t hear,  pls just move along and leave me here,  please, im sorry I couldnt be there for u when u needed me