heaven got an angel

I just got the most devastating news heaven called u to soon.d I'm feeling hella hurt, lost, and confused, it's gonna be hard these holidays without u. I wanted to go visit u I did, but I just started to remember u our lives u know us younger I mean fuck I looked up to u like as if u were my mother. we will go crusin in ur car waving and saying hi to whoever, pooh will get embarrassed, u me and desy hardly never. I know trust me deep in my heart I thought about going to c u but I just couldn't I didn't want to c u like that. instead I rather just remember the way u always made us laugh and how I babysat. damn it's crazy cuz even though u at times were hella mean as can be. u were still always there for me. I know u were not perfect but neither am i , u were sort of at times like my mom fuck I just ask why? Me, Desy and Pooh always together, we be making it thru any type of weather. we have been thru our ups and downs , acted like crazy clowns but at the end of the day we got closer fuck it hurts to know we lost her. I remember when we will get shana mad cuz we be acting like crazy clowns. get her embarrassed because sometimes there be people around. fuck still can't believe ur gone, but I know ur with our family & love ones that we've lost along the way Heaven made u an angel it will be ok so spread ur wings our angel we will c u again some day. let's take a few shots for my cousin Shan. always in our hearts u will still remain, don't u worry ur memory we will keep alive. just sucks we had to say goodbye but one day we will meet again just stay close to the gate for when it's my time u can let me in . I know forever in my heart is where u will be. shana just hold open that gate for me.