Find Myself (09:59:55)

Movin Along Stuuna Look Im really done with this pain in my heart alot of shits happened im falling apart im missing my baby im missing the way that he kept me in check now i have to restart my mom nd dad finna split on top of that all my friends chose to dip act like im fine but im falling to bits i lose myself and im losing my shit i wanna drink but i gotta stay sober i want some weed and just hit over over pop a lul purk nd forget im hung over dropped outta school might regret when im older i want some benzos to get me fucked up i want to cry but im just outta luck I hate my life and i hate that im stuck I wanna fight so these nigs better duck not suicidal but shit can get blurry they say be patient but im in hurry im turning cold like macdonalds mcflurrys Mccall back in jail now i hate all the jurrys ill never snitch onna nigga for nothin so quick to trust give my body to often im not in love i just hate how i lost him i went to juvi now guess we stopped talkin cant rant to nobody cuz thats how they do going thru phases of pain in a loop have one stay solid she getting me thru she never a fake to me she always true i heard from my heart i decided to jot cranked out this song and my words mean alot my mind in a spiral i keep getting lost one day ill be winning ill be at the top i cry out to god but i dont hear an answer is he not real and religions just standard my heart has a key but i cant find the lanyard the wall i put up turns my hurt into anger