I lost my father in this time an hate to see the tears flow from my mother's eyes cause she lost someone she called the love of her life do u really have to pay a price cause even when she tries to hide the pain inside i can still see it in her eyes I love her so much but at the same time I question love cause what we wish would be for a life time ended up being just for a little while an now we left with scars and questions like why is it to safe the souls of them thts still alive that we had to say goodbye ....I know u been fine before u know them but still u felt comfortable planning a lifetime even though u knew dead was just a matter of time love is a tricky thing I think of the day I have to look my man in the eye thinking about when will it be our time is it better to stay alone than to commit to something that has a timeline that's why u dont born with a man or a wife but a dead date just like ur birthdate.....knowing any day can be ur checkdate tht u have to leave this for a better place like they say heaven is that place but why cant we just be there all of our days or is it just like on earth u have to come an go life an learn even if u wanted to stay an get comfortable in ur ways now I have to give birth to a child in this days wondering if he will also grow up without a father one day is this a generational curse cause as far as I can see this happend to my grandparents and everyone after them ita like we been puted in reverse I thought I could be the change but I guess all of this is in my veins....working hard day and night for a better life but.all this struggle seems to be in vain no matter how hard u try to ease the pain it just never goes away .looking for better days in pictures of others in this human raise while they act like they are infront in this race I guess there's no difference between the one that wins the race and the one that loose for metals and trophies are just for a while but u have to die just like the last one in line