Looking back I gotta laugh/ not enough divided time I did the math /I gave you my heart but you didn't hand it back intact/ when I needed you the most you didn't have my back/stressed out at times I over react/ best route is to smoke and relax/ all alone in what was supposed to be OUR home/hard not to relapse/ if the love is real believe me /it shouldn't be that easy /to just throw it in the trash/ I know this for a fact/ you gave up willingly/ then blamed it on responsibility/ I'll keep it real with how I feel this shits been killing me/now everything I do I'm second guessing/ my heart and my head  pull me in different directions/ sometimes I  question if you just needed affection/thanks for the lesson/ attractions not the same as connection/ trapped in this trailer park feeling less than/supposed to be there for each other/ lost my lover and my best friend Would you ride for me/ Could you try for me/ Would you die for me? Could you lie to me? I try to open my eyes/ First thing that comes to my mind/ Is what for? Every one in this life / Lies and leaves from my side/ Everything gets cut short/ I can't take this much more/ I'm spent  mentally I can't afford/ To give much more/its tough looking forward/ when im cut to the core/ Cause what for? Don't even feel worthy/ Of you having to worry/ You say you don't judge/ But it's your wording When I hear the verdict from the jury I hope you get everything I couldn't give/ I hope you get to travel and you never trip/ life is what you make of it/ Perseverance is what greatness is/ you've got goals as I recall, so make a list/ I've got holes in every wall, The same shape as my fist, The situation was shitty, And I'll admit that I was pissed I hate to quit But I took my shot and missed Still you were worth the risk It's just.. I try to open my eyes/ First thing that comes to my mind/ Is what for? Every one in this life / Lies and leaves from my side/ Everything gets cut short/ I can't take this much more/ I'm spent  mentally I can't afford/ To give much more/its tough looking forward/ when im cut to the core/ Cause what for?