?back on the Balance beaM?

I feel I felt but I still don't feel good, I think I thought & I'm still misunderstood I just wanna be real but you got me on my heels pleasure life isn't real it only feels it's always kills righteous life just feels boring professional disappointing I am meant to choose either way I always lose so how... do I choose so how... if I lose it's normal but I still don't know how do I feel I feel hopeless then I feel pain wanna be fearless that ain't happening I know I'll try my best again going to make it but I'm just sick of it... it... it... cycles and cycle of painful misery ouch ouch think I'm going to fall back on the balance beam gonna give my all ohh ohh wanna be cold oh wanna let gooo follow the core but I got a stay tight yeah hold on tight yeah stay insight realise oh keep it on (3x) move along (3x) {2x} I see a dream I must believe keep reality in check presently live a life with what I can balance to make sure I'm happy I'll make sacrifices freaking hurt some people maybe make some mistakes but at least I gain oh # ?gidix