If I won't Change- NumatikOne

I don't want to feel this way where my mind frame, negative in many ways, from day by the day, I'm only able to be, as I'll continue with being, if I won't change.... - What the fuck is this, situation of current, Did I awaken attention, who the hell am i, to bring any interest, for reasons given, upon this by listen, the intent to talk shit, when differences, co-exist, if in equal opinion by the moment felt, and thats if in question, realities vary, something, from everything, awareness does happen, to define the situations, actions always result, outcome of consequences, wasn't trust supposed, to be most important, now it seems not enough, for what I know about it, division,devastation, serious entanglements, complicated behaviors, and I'm here in reaction, tired and exhausted, keeping onto my direction, that I can only express with, and that there, out in the open, i shouldn't give a fuck about it,then again, I'm voicing to vent,spoken, stressing out, building a vehicle, at engine, driving this one pass, you and theres no stopping to any more traffic, to another crashing, erratic is a climate of course by inviting disaster, - I don't want to feel this way where my mind frame, negative in many ways, from day by the day, I'm only able to be, as I'll continue with being, if I won't change.... no matter what you feeling for an Enough is enough, take your knife, out my blindside and fast, I shouldn't have to ask, wouldn't I keep my business to myself, and handle it, like react...