drowning underwater

Its all for nothing drowning underwater thinking what have I become fuck I can't fell pain think I'm going numb maybe I'm insane I'm just not enough crying out for help but this isn't a net. I've been broken on your hopeless damn it this is an effect because I'm running from myself maybe I was made in somebody's mind your not in my situation there's things going on here that needs explanation and nobody will know all that information. Everyone leaves me in my mind its not stored it sadness saves me saying Its a door how do I survive in this eye looking storm how can it exist if nobody talks about it. ohhhhhhh'