despressed😭😭😭😭😢

I went to battle feed all I see the homies moving around my nigga has no clue, when i see everything turn out dooming I frew away, I never drew myself into that crew again bcuz that was fucking ridiculous I always not even ready to battle, nigga that shit was so awful, bcuz it really weak my spirit, I was fucking disappointed so....I went outside, behind the yard and seat, and do some research on my rhythms bcuz that is the key for rapping so.... all i got is study and learn frm em',watching 8miles that really motivate me to bcum rapper but sometimes my homies always try to discourage me but i ain't give up, bcuz I love rap so much bcuz of that they got envy nd push me away, so...I began to study and keep on practicing to be prefect even do am to slow in the game but ain't give up, bcuz some days are like that I felt so pity on myself, doing crazy shit that so embarrassing I couldn't count how many time i fail ,All I did was to think further, think about the reality, that witness in different activity that i pictured I know am not perfect, all i need is your help from deep down from your heart yeah!